Right now I'm not at peace with being at Parkside. I'm conflicted. But I'm not sure the reason of the confliction. Is it driven by fear. The fear of having just pulled myself out of a deep hole, I'll fall back into it. Could it be compared to someone walking on their broken leg before it was fully healed.Am I to weak yet and need to build my strength instead of doing these classes at half strength. Is the confliction driven by the devil who is looking to deceive me, and make me feel unrest. Is God providing these conflicting thoughts so I'll get out of Parkside? If I just knew what God wanted I'd find peace. I'd find peace with being at Parkside if this is what he wanted of me. I find myself wishing to be a commuter sometimes, because at the end of the day they get to be home with pets and family. Never before have I questioned in a season if I should be at Parkside. This is the first time. I'm struggling to hear the answer. So this is where I'm at. Hopefully I come to a conclusion soon. I'm hoping God will speak clearly to me.
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